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December 20th, 2009
12:24 pm
stop being so suck up to me. im not the type of girl whom like peple to be suck up to be.
so can you please just f*ck off. you're irritaing.
p/s: i dun like you. move along-.-
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December 19th, 2009
11:36 pm
i hasnt done a proper update for a long long time. and my lj is seriously DYING-.-
work had.. been... horrible?
horrible manager. guailan customers, damn long working hours, standing parade-.-
but i got really really nice working people:D
they really treated me like little girl:D but kind of.. happy that.. i didnt have to continue work:D
i've been going to outings with friends and shopping and stuff.
escape on tuesday. and i bet i nvr want to take pirate ship AGAIN-.- and neither do i want to go into haunted house 2 AGAIN-.- esp with a group of guys who leaves me walking in front-.- but i had a great time:D
playing mini bowl, eating at fish and co and stuff. really enjoyed myself.
yet i felt something weird, something which i shouldnt felt at all.
wednesday had been rotting day, i had been a good girl and i stayed at home:S
bored.. to.. death.
went for piano. played with baby:D
then thursday.
i swear i will nv step into facial again-.- went shopping with grandma.. BORING.
and i fell sick-.-
friday.. lets not talk about it.
spoils mood.
thanks thomas.i was on the verge of crying after i got so angry-.-
went for shopping spree:D
In 1 hour plus, i spend $36 buying 3 shirt and 2 shorts:D
and i was very happy about it!
today, went out with mummy, shopping again:D
happy happy:D
i bought.. colourful undies:D
heh! it was on sales!
and i change the stupid LJ skin! fits christmas! and i really love it! :D
i feel really dumb.i feel really dumb.
grow up wend!you arent young anymore.15 next year.
and now im really worried about how am i going to make it through chinese i levels next year-.-
cos i got a feeling im gonna get either a E8 or not worst F9-.-
but i really wanna get into child physco and ealy education, im going gah gah ovr that course!
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December 14th, 2009
05:24 pm
okays. this song by carol really sang out what i really felt.
I've been living without you
Life now doesnt seem so right
Ive been crying all these nights
Baby, cant we start anew?
I need you to hold me
Through nights that I cant see
The thunderstorming nights
Youll be there against my frights
So please
Come back to me
Ill love you, endlessly
Baby please I need you, here with me
Oh baby please
Come back to me
I miss your big bear hugs
Your shirt every time Ill tug
Those sweet short little kisses?
All those, Ive sure missed it
I dont wanna go away
Living each day, comes what may
Ill give you all you need
All these, baby, I promise.
hmmmm. sometimes, things really wun undo. i really hope, really hope... you know.
but ultimately impossible.
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December 12th, 2009
08:59 pm
i feel that i shouldnt even existed in this world at all.
it sucks it really does.
yet no one to rant at.
p/s: christopher wong! can you stop enjoying your holidays at hong kong and come back please.
argh. cos there's no one with me. and i feel horrible.
Current Music: lucky
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December 11th, 2009
08:51 pm
friendship sucks.
what is trust.
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December 7th, 2009
09:57 am
i want to tell someone, im sorry.
也许有一天，我真的可以把你放下，但是，现在我只请求，不要再有一个人来被我伤害。
我不知道我还不还在你的心中，但是，我希望你会快乐，把不开心的事情给我来承受。你去过你的生活
因为，我会默默地在一旁，天天为你祈祷，希望你会快乐。
因为，我依然没忘记你，而还在。。。
爱着你。
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December 5th, 2009
11:15 pm
sometimes, i really hope to be more than just a friend to you.
maybe it takes time. but i just want to be a good friend, i no need to be best friend with you.
first time, beside luocheng, i have wanted someone to be more than a friend.
cousin is still my bestie:D
i really hope that you will cheer up, i dunno what it is. but still..24/7 for you.
maybe i have been lending my ears to too many people, sometimes i do need their ears too.
the house feels so empty. so cool outside.
hais.
i miss you, i really really do.
i've nvr been lonely with you by my side, now i do feel it.
hitting me hard this time.
someone asked if i still love you, i didnt know what to answer.
if i said no, i would be lying.if i say yes, im not true to my heart.
sigh.if just one day you would be back.
thats my christmas wish, all i want for christmas is you.
and all i want for my birthday is you.
i don't ask for anything, i dun even ask for a nice home, all i want is to have you right beside me.
but, let tha be a unfufilled wish. i know it would never come true.
lord, would you be my lamp, guide me along and bring be through my dark times.
thank you lord, in jesus name, amen
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December 3rd, 2009
10:34 am
我不怕风 不怕冷 带给我不完美
只要我还懂得怎样去给
我迎着风 迎着冷 穿越所有伤悲
只要能擦掉你眼中的泪
it's has been 1 month.
30 days.
so how have i been feeling? trying so hard to numb myself from pain?
i did drank quite abit during class chalet.
but actually, i wasnt drunk was i?
actually i dunno, elroy said i was, but i felt so blur ytd.
so what has alcohol did to numb the pain? nothing.
and you didnt know how i feel.
i don't know if one day you are going to read this, but i doubt so.
who matters to you, im just a friend.
for the past 1 month, i did have thoughts of just ignoring you and get on with life, just to make you disappear from my life.
but i cant.
喜欢一个人多久，就要用一样的时间来忘记他。
maybe giving me another 8 months, that would just happen.
so what if i cry? so what if im hurt? so what if im in pain.
did it matter to you?
no, it doesnt. i tried so hard to hide all my feelings.
有时候，我真的很累很累。我也不知道要怎么样，我才会好过一些。
但是，虽然我会喜欢别人，但是想告诉你，你是我唯一爱的一个，在这个时候，也没人再可以代替你的地位了。
因为你的名字，你的脸，你的习惯，你每一样事情，每一个东西，每个小细节，都已经深深的刻印在我的脑海里了。
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November 30th, 2009
06:24 pm
i didnt know why i was so bothered.
and i hate all this feelings happening daily, it sucks.
ZZZ.
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November 29th, 2009
10:03 am
i really don't know how long is this gonna last.
but i just knew, i like you.without any reasons.
i wasnt suppose to like you, at all.
i shall wait patiently.
im so lost on what to do now. im very very lost. yet no one to tell me what to do.
I wish upon a star
Wanna be right where you are
You set my world on fire
Babe I got a crush on you
I wish upon a star
Can't you see how right we are
We should be together
Babe I got a crush on you
I used to turn around and walk away
Never stopped to play
Cause there was no attraction
But in my heart you start to grow on me
Kind of suddenly
So now I've changed direction
Knowing it might seems strange
Love came over me
Feeling the luck has changed
Do you want me, like I want you?
[Chorus]
In this cold world, where dreams are few
Baby, I want you
Is it too much to ask for?
I'll take you places where you never been
If you just give in
So babe, it's now or never
Knowing it might seems strange...
Love came over me
Feeling the luck has changed
Do you want me, like I want you?
[Chorus]
Me and you, you and me. Living a life in harmony
Oh It's magic magic magic babe I've got a crush on you
Me and you, you and me. Living a life in harmony
It's magic magic cos babe I've got a crush on you
So if you feel the way I do
Would you fancy to
To take a ride beside me?
Me and you, you and me. Living a life in harmony
It's magic(oh it's magic) babe I've got a crush on you [x2]
[Chorus]
I wish upon a star
Wanna be right where you are
You set my world on fire
Babe I got a crush on you
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November 28th, 2009
06:27 pm
feels so long since i touch the com. had been.. tiring, yet fun these few weeks.
let me take my time to list them all out.
stating from annual guides camp.
-annual guides camp-
i got no comments actually. i think i did quite well. and im proud of myself that no one fall out during PT(:
although there were screwed up, but then..i still love my sec 2s(:
i got no more comments, or at least, im not going to say them.
-bintan-
day 1-
met at school at 630, reached at 6plus and then..went to 7-11 to buy top up card. took a bus to ferry terminal, then, to the ferry(: to bintan.
i slept, or close my eyes:D
i didnt puke.LOL!
reached bintan, then all the talking stuff, then it's lunch time(: first lunch at bintan, not bad, cos i was damn hungry. LOL!
then got free time, then company A did mosquito netting(: was fun okays,, for some reasons, although it was CIP(:
i learn alot from the CIP(:
singapore is still very nice, im a fortunate kid(:
the place there.. was like... mosquito>.<
then we had some time left, so we played the stupid obstacle course. i screamed like nobody business-.- i was stuck at the rod-.- ass.
then was bathing time, the toilets were... no comments-.-
then we played truth or dare(: and was dinner. LOL!
and i forgot still got whats-.- then was reflection. our group damn noisy-.-
day 2-
had alot of fun(: we woke up waiting for sunrise, but the sun rise from the other side-.-
then was coconut tree climbing-.- okay, i was stuck halfway, and i started making alot of noise asking the person to put me down-.-
im scared of heights, cannot blame(:
then was flying fox, luckily i didnt shake the ladder till it fell, cos i was super scre when climbing up-.-
and i off pitch when i shouted guides, but it was a fun experience(:
damn steep.
and i think leslie and jun yang were the most funny people!>.< damn cute-.-
then after flying fox was lunch, imagine everyone wet and sitting on the chair, damn argh.
then was boom netting, i know you're going to laugh, but i only jumped twice-.-
and the second time, i hurt my leg-.- ended up being lame-.- ass.
i love the bus journey back(; but the journey there was.. err.. quite a nice experience, wun get to experience it in singapore. LOL!kampong walk, but i think more like.. jungle walk.
it was like... going to war-.- LOL!damn funny.
then the whole bus went BOOM BOOM SHAKE SHAKE(:
then was bathing then.. dinner.
i had alot of sotong!>.<
then was.. campfire(:
quite screwed, but i love knock it down(:
knock it down rocks.
3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for knock it down!>.<
LOL! campfire games were fun.
thank you sir for the friendship dance(: it was really nice(:
after camp fire was reflection-.-
sian!>.<
then after that was sleeping, but then ah.. i slept at 3am-.- joey didnt ask me to join her outside(:
some idiot woke up for sunrise again. LOL!
i woke up early though(:
day 3-
day 3 starts with breakfast.
then after that was rafting. it was fun working with that bunch of people(:
although they were totally no help at all(: but fun(:
our raft didnt collapse.
and thanks lau!>.< i could only say you was damn gentlemen(: LOL!
after rafting was kayaking. was tgt with jun yang. and i didnt really regretted grouping with him.
was really damn fun. i think we can work well tgt mans!>.<
and we went around banging people kayak.lol! we were damn irritating. although we were damn fast, but the wind kept blowing us.
then we purposely capsize the kayak(: damn fun(:
after that was bathing time, then was.packing. and then off we go(: HOME.
i puke on th ship. damn it!>.<
although i took the medicine, twice somemore, no use-.-
i still seasick-.-
then home sweet home
had amksian showcase rehearsal for the sec2s the next day, i was damn itchy-.-
and i was pissed that day >-:
wed had guides, thursday had archery(: fun fun.
friday-
went out with UG sec2s'09
met at 10.30 at amk
damn fun(:, but some people were late.
then headed down to pasir ris to have our lunch(:
went to white sands, then the guys went to arcade and the girls joined it(:
then went to park to cycle(:
i cycled with sat(:
couple. tiring, but was fun(: at least sat knows how to cycle abit now(:
then went couple with cousin(: fun sia(: we went to the end(:
then back and started raining-.-
so imagine so many people running to the bus stop when there is no bus-.- idiot-.-
then we managed to squeeze in the bus, so many stinky people--.-
then went to pasir ris then to ehub!
wanted to sneak in to NC16 show- case 39. but didnt succeed.
ended up playing in the arcade again-.-
played till evening.
then to downtown-.-
then to amk for dinner, cos there were no grass-.
so anyway..to amk.
the bus journey was.. super fun(:
as in, we were damn freaking noisy and we almost book the whle of the upper deck-.-
imagine so many people making a full lot of noise-.-
LOL
then i talked with cousin!
funfun(:
anyway, went back to have dinner.
then left at 9 plus.
waited for bus with joey for 30 mins-.-
and i reached home at 10 plus-.- ass ass.. damn ass.
but it was fun(:
i love sec2s UG(: they still rocks.i got to get alot of numbers(:
and i found out something which was so OMG-.-i did something which i shouldnt do at all-.- crap!
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November 15th, 2009
12:19 pm
all that i can say is that.. i am going crazy
it was like..wtf ytd night, and today, like damnit.
i had so many things to do.
so last minute. i couldnt get things settled.
it cant be all possibly on me, i only got 1 pair of hands.. mind you ONE pair.
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November 14th, 2009
09:51 pm
im in 3/2 and im glad(:
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September 8th, 2009
04:52 pm
keep the faith, hang on:D
i think im a bad girl, im a bad bad girl(:
have you once thought what if one day the helicopter bangs intonyou on the streets? i know im random, but i suddenly thought of this such-s-stupid-question.
and i had a very stupid dream ytd night.
characters:
-ms chin
-ms mel
-ms delia
-mr dongyu
-ME>.<
it's damn stupid.one day, i was taking 165 home(FYI, 165 doesnt go to my house), but i ended up at my house.
when i step out of the bus, mel was at the busstop too, when she saw me, she walked away, so i followed behind, and ask,you waiting for me ah? LOL!
and she replied, NO!>.< i want to go to miss chin house, she stays near you mahs(ms chin dun stay near me)
so mel just walk away. just nice, when walking to my block, a egg drop on her head-.-
from a flat, i dunno why it landed on her, and she shouted! YAY! i got a free egg(i know it's damn stupid-.-)
as i was still following her, another egg land on my head-.- and i shouted.. ewww another one.
and mel said..oh, you dun want it, then give it to me then-.-
okay, so ms delia and dongyu were holding hands behind us like siblings(when did dongyu became delia brother?)
then pish! 2 eggs landed on them!
and mel started rolling on the floor cos she thinks the person who throw the egg was super stupid cos she got 4 eggs in total-.-
and so.. i was laughing silly when i woke up-.- how stupid can this joke be?! LOL!so stupis so stupid~
anyway..imisssgoingtothelibrary.
i dunno why am i crying because of silly stuff.
but having someone more important than me, yes, it's hard.
but i was asking myself, what else can i do? hais. its okay(:
haven i thought that it's okay had been a too common word for me, everything i do, im telling myself, it's okay, it will be alrght-.-
it;s mugging time:D
god, i leave the rest up to you(:
AMEN.
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September 7th, 2009
08:57 am
like you know, like i know.
anyway.. this week. things hasnt been going well:D
but im well and alive>.<
i had been quarrelling with alot of people lately.
and i manage to pluck out my courage to tell deardear something.
which was like wow, i nvr manage to tell anyone before.okay, it was really sensitive.
but anyway, thank for not saying anything. i told something bad might happen.
i wanna watch the proposal badly.i need a good good laugh.
anyway, the holidays are here:D
and im going to go out for all the days:D
i think im a bad girl, im a bad bad girl.
oh, im still a water girl. i cried this week, in school, was sooooo super paiseh, OMG-ness.
now i got no face!>.<
i still wonder whats the meaning for friends, i never once thought things would turn out this way.
somehow, someone so close to me, someone i shared almost everything with.someone who if i got something nice, you're one of the first i would think of.someone who im comfortable sharing my secrets with. someone, whom i thought, you was always the nicest person on earth.though we dun talk much, thought me dun hang out much.but i actually thought that it was alright.
but it wasnt.just because of what others had said.you judged. sad? upset? not anymore. disappointment should be the word.
if ever, i would talk to you again, and be back like it was the past, it would be a miracle.
why cant this memories just fade away?
soon it will be ________, but i really dunno what to do.i sat there thinking for a day.
asking people for opinion, but then..haiz...SIAN.
i was supppose to be editing my proposal. but i decided to lj-.-
nevertheless.
im disgusted by the fact that SHE, post all she want on blog, and tada, feels so GROSS. and i mean, it's your fault at first, then just let it go-.-
keeping you in my prayers; in my heart.
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September 3rd, 2009
08:23 am
happy belated
had been doing proposal this few days.
and squeezing my brains to think of new ideas. and actually im proud of myself^^
anyway.. went out with dear dear for our anniversary(:
thanks(: he was having prelims the next day and he went out with me.
anyway. im posting in ICT(: how great can i be(:
and mummy is out of town this weekend.
that means i got my freedom!>.<
see ifi get to go out in the night^^
i wanna go study with joey(:
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August 30th, 2009
04:51 pm
you think im very happy?
washed my hands, i don't give a damn.
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August 29th, 2009
07:44 am
training had been FUUUUNNNN :D
although it was tiring.
but!
at least i didnt fall out
at least i ran the 2 rounds
at least i didnt walk
at least i didnt fall down<i've been very clumsy recently>
at least i didnt puke
at least i played the PT games
at least it was fun and i enjoy myself!:D
if delta was there, it would be more fun:D
anyway, I/C was howard.
*no, you didnt hear wrongly*
IT'S HOWARD! ~
and im group with marcus.
*don't go OMG, he's not that bad*
anyway: at least i putting some effort okay! stop saying me!
guides cookies are on sale!
1.chocolate cream
2.chocolate mint
3.chocolate crunch
*$10 per box.
it's nice and it's yummy(:
buy from me buy from me.
actually i lost that enthuisiam(how to spell?!)
nvm.
this week had been much of a busy week.
i finally completed my piano exam.
anyway, i screw-ed it up. super badly.
i hope it will be alright.don't CMI.
it's been a proposal week.
next week will be more proposal week>.<
but i halfway done, but i just cannot think of what im suppose to do-.-
im sorry to the logistics, i didnt mean to TAKE SO LONG-.-
i think i've completed quite alot except for the logistics part!
damnit!>.< stupid wend!
this weekend shall be my stay at home and chiong my studies week.
iimagine im not going out^^ shall be guai and stay at home!>.<
am i reallyy that disappointed in myself? i still didnt make it through, or is this what my heart is feeling?
did i really wanted this to happen? whcih part had i not done enough? i tried my best, my very very best.
i lost that feeling.lost it way long ago.
no more wanting to be the wend i used to be.
i worked so hard, but i just dun gain awknowledgment.
gosh, how would you feel? i really dunno.
disappointed, not anymore.
and now, i went one big round, im disappointed in you and you and you you you you!
just because you heard something from the other people who has a BIG mouth.
you ignored me for soo mnay days.
great. we took 1 1/4 year to build it up.
till today 1 min, you smashed it down, all by yourself.
how nice can that be! and i thank you for that. talking to you had been so much of pain, ignorance.
and you and you..
what if the rainbow has so many holes and so mnay secret between each other? i lost the interest to find out things.
i rather if you want to say, then say, dun want, it's okay.
friendships have so mnay secrets. now what about good friends, close friends, till i coould be siblings with?
i got nothing to say.
i still love primary school:D
i think they ae way more mature.
from sharing school to our different views, to the different way we solve things.to how we get bushuang with each other and make up within 2 mins.
im looking forward to meeting them on monday(:
it's the happiness you get when you hang out with friends that you'll nvr forget.
1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)
ifelttired,wheniwasonthevergeongivingup,thanksforgivingmeahold,ididntfalldown.
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August 23rd, 2009
12:33 pm
who on earth will know what will happen in the next min, maybe all of us will just die and it becomes end of the world?
maybe we will all become retarded?hahaha!
sometimes we just dun want to face up reality.
just like.. WEND, YOU ARE AN IDIOT.
no, im not, even though i know i am one.
just like.. sometimes we dun dare to voice out our unhappiness, afraid that others will start to look at us from another angle?
what's with the human minset, i sometimes wonder.
am i putting some things too much on the priority and neglecting the others at times?
i guess so it's time i really should balance it out.
or at least, put my studies in the first priority.
i shouldnt let other things bring me down.
it's just a few more weeks to FYE.
it's your streaming, wendelyn, you better mug hard.
LIFE IS JUST SO UNPREDICTABLE.
i've been not wanting any responsiblities.
or at least, dun want such a heavy one.
feel the weigh of the world on my shoulders.
i just dun like the way you do things.
whats wrong.im gonna be way better than you!>.<
anyway. it will soon be over, hang on wend.
and there is no one to rant to.i know humans cant keep secrets.and then..you know.
rainbows are nice to whine at(:
cos i think ranbows do come as one and feel the same way.
but what if 1 day, the dispersion of white light doesnt become a rainbow anymore, what if it doesnt have 7 colours?
what if science is just lying to me?
what if they doesnt come tgt as 1?
what if 1 day it breaks apart?
so many things are happening. 1 after another.
i just wish it was like the last time.
the innocent people without so many hatred and then...saying so many thing.
sian.
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